Still no progress, so my mind is reeling

I awoke with a start last night and couldn't go back to sleep.  My mind was reeling with all the questions I have and the anxiousness to get answers from Dr. Wonderful Dentist.  I left a message on Monday, still haven't heard back.  I called again today.

I just want to get some progress going.  I know Dr. Wonderful's intentions are great, to get everyone 'on board' and working together...but really...I've been doing this non stop for almost 6 years now, and I know, nothing gets done unless you just keep pushing it.  I want to get the names and numbers of those specialists and just make appointments already.  I'm getting disappointed because the summer is gone, and now I'll have to have my eldest miss school for all these appointments.

This is one of the things that had me up last night.  The others?  Geesh...
> Is it right for my eldest to be in a self-contained classroom?  Is that really the 'least restrictive environment'?
> How mad I am at my father-in-law for bringing his new wife's estranged sister to our small family birthday party last October...and how I am going to need to tell him that it's an exclusive invite...and not to do that again.

My father-in-law?  I'm dreaming about my son and then thinking about my father-in-law?  Well...I suppose that is the anxiety of a cookout this weekend.  Which the man changed at the last minute, totally messing up Wonderful Husband and my night out with a sleepover for the kids at his sister's house.  Instead, I get to go to a cookout with his family, half of who I love, half of who I'm genuinely afraid of...really.  So I think my subconscious was afraid that my father-in-law will start to bring these uninvited guests to our house...even if they are 'family.'  Thank goodness the half I'm afraid of are 'extended family.'  More to come...maybe...don't want to bash in-laws...Wonderful Husband does read this blog!

So, back to my eldest...I know my logical self can tell me to calm down.  That this summer wasn't wasted on missing specialist appointments...that was probably the best thing for him to take a break from all this.  That the self-contained classroom may not be bad, since he is testing at a lower age range socially.  Stop it! I'm telling myself.  Stop comparing! Will you please just live in the moment?  Stop thinking things through and trying to solve the insolvable!  Nothing is going to solve this or change it, just get through the day and have fun.

And finally, let your Wonderful Husband deal with his dad.  Right!  I'm going to ask Wonderful Husband to tell his father to make sure not to bring his scary cousins to our house this fall.  That our birthday party is small...oh yea, and don't bring your new wife's estranged sister.  It will be up to him to share that his wife is afraid she's going to rob her of the few pieces of good jewelry she owns.  And definitely don't bring the drunkard cousins...I think it is safe for me to say, we are both kind of afraid of them.